Discharged from the hospital

Monday, 36 hrs after giving birth to my lovely Ammar mummy was discharged home leaving behind my precious baby under the care of staff in NICU

I did not go home straight away,noorwan came to pick me up, we went up for lunch. He chose Nizam,It was a weird feeling, I was there just the day before Ammar was born. I had a sudden craving for their biryani was in the area to pick up sheer curtain that I had ordered from curtain studio

Less than a week.I was there again, this time as a non pregnant lady :) 

Actually when I was there by myself, I had actually started bleeding already

After lunch daddy dropped me back to NICU so I could do his 2.30 feed. The usual routine, feed,a quick cuddle, pump, then I hang around for the next feed which was 5.45pm

I made small chats with few ladies and befriend some, this made me feel better and less bored

I had ordered medela freestyle that morning, checked the tracking number and to my delight, it had arrived in hamilton!! I requested for it to he sent to the depo instead of my home address

Daddy was in chartwell with aliya & aiman buying a teddy for ammar's incubator

I asked him to come and pick us up so we could go to courier post

Once we picked that up, daddy mentioned that aliya's ear is a bit smelly, and he wanted to get abx for it. Poor aliya has had OME with perfusion but we kinda ignore it because she was not in pain. Seeing that we were soo close to SCH where I worked, we dropped by to get a script. Lisa,Bex & Ali were there. Chatted to them abt what had happened etc. Got a script for aliya, did a swab. Went to SCHP to get her ear drops & came back to hosp to feed ammar then we all left

I was a bit emotional that night, being home sans baby, had a good cry of course

The thing that kept me going is a vision of my obstetric pt on wd 55 going home with a still born child in a carseat! They insisted on doing it that way. It was a sad occasion for us. I am grateful that my baby is alive! He is just unable to come home yet

That Night I started my routine of pumping every 3 hrs

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Pregnancy hormones syndrome
Sick mummy
Left alone with kiddos
DH's gone fishing - longest fishing trip so far
Feels sooo unappreciated - afterall I am
An independent iron lady
Still has to entertain kids despite feeling like crap
Had a good cry in the shower this morning
Still doesn't feel good
Just have to let it out but how??
Hate feeling this way


#feelingsorryformyself


Missing my support network

#homesick

Testing, updating with iphone

Mood-o-Meter - Upset

:((((((

I am HUNGRY

It's 1.32 am, I couldn't sleep, blaming the mochalatte with double espresso that I had this arvo. Hungry now. My old me would runsack the kitchen. Would be helping myself to a plate of rice with ikan bilis goreng and chilli oil -something that I always have in the cupboard and forever enticing me to a plate (or two) of white steaming rice

But my new me?? Tahan aje la lapar sampai esok pagi. What would greet me tomorrow morning?? Hmm for the last ?? 6-7 months I think, I have been having 2 eggwhites, poached, with 2 piece of toast for breakfast, I even tried that for sahur ok! BUt for sahur I cannot telan lahhh, nasik jugak mauuu...why that combo?? It keep my hunger pangs at bay, no need to eat anythingelse till lunchtime

But working days je laaa, weekend ku sumbat nasi lemak, bihun goreng jugakkkkk

Kriukk kriukk perut ku berbunyi...

Testing testing

Blogger by ipad

motip gambar???

1) nak tayang cermin baru beli petang tadi, tapi x pasang lagi, motip beli cermin panjang??


2) nak menerai blogger app kat iPad, sebabnya pakai android app tu, gambaq kualiti x memberangsangkan lgsg

Jawapan - no 2 laaaaa

Hmm gambaq better, tapi still x sharp

Mid life crisis???

I have tried a few concealers before, mainly in my uni years, last attempt was 2 yrs ago, got succumb into buying thin lizzy, mainly because thanks to k hanim and k jun auckland, I can get them at 1/2 of the retail price, so I thought no harm in trying.
Most of the concealers that I've tried either gave me panda eyes, or simply didn't give the coverage that I am after

Entah macam mana la tetiba terasa gatal nak cuba lagi, I hate hate my dark circles. Did a bit of research, apprently MAC has a lot of colour range and do cater for asian skin, they have a few branches in Auck, so I dragged DH and the kids to JJCM (roti tisu!!!) Plus MAC hunting

Having done my reading beforehand, I was convinced NC35 (colour)would be the one they'd reccommend, so I was surprised when she reccommended NW35 instead, now, I am no expert, but apparently NC has yellow undertone which I have always understand is best for asian skin.NW on the other has has pink undertone which is more suited to caucasian skin. But she said because my dark circle is quite bad (roll yes huhu) the yellow undertone would make it stand up even more. She also said that I only need 'select cover' range .Studio finish would be too thick. I am quite glad I had made the trouble to go to the store, I might have saved some moolah by buying online, buy will buy a completely wrong one!

I was prepared to buy a foundation as well, but ahem ahem, to my delight, she said I don't need one because my skin is good already, a powder will do. Unless I want to go for super made up look, which is not what I am after...so I bought a concealer, powder (mineralize skinfinish natural)  + a lipstik ( lustre viva glam V) .I like that the lipstick gave me that nude, barely there look

DH said muka x nampak jelaga dah bila pakai ni, not sure what he meant by jelaga??? Dark circles la kot???

Lepas ni boleh la slowly try blusher plus eye makeup pulak hihihi, tadi try mascara, but I didn't buy

Midlife crisis?? Buang tabiat kot hihi

Tata for now

Oh dilemma

My gym membership is expiring soon, in a few weeks time to be exact. Not sure if I am going to renew it. I had been going diligently for at least 9 months. Do note the past tense. I have been really slack in the last 2 months though. Initially because of my minor operations, then followed by christmas & new year (gym tutup) can't seem to get my momentum back

I have seen results though.I haven't lost much weight, maybe about 6-7 kgs, BUT I have lost a lot of inches which I am very happy with, so overall I am very please with it.I have gone down from size 14 to 10! Hoyehhh..now how do I maintain it if I decided not to go to the gym anymore???

Going to the gym do take a LOT of my time. Do I enjoy it?? Want an honest answer or not?? Not really lahhhh apa daaaaa, tdo lagi sedap daaaa

Recently I have come accross a lot of other cheap exercise opportunity that combines social factor as well, fitness class at a cost of a gold coin donation ($1-2) weekly badminton session @ $7 a session, walking buddies (FOC) tennis buddies (FOC) I dont know how to play tennis though, LOL

GYm membership will cost me $700+, which is a LOT of money.But I do want to continue doing some strength training though,cardio is easy, can 'try' and start running again, badminton will provide me with the cardio bit, the fitness class is mix of both, but I think I need more -if I do want more muscle bulk

My diet has changed a LOT as well, on a working days especially.  I would cringe at the thought of eating some of the food that I am eating now, esp for lunch at work, being in a health professional world does help a teeny weeny bit. Not when I was working at the hospital though. We get our lunch for free at the hosp, so we stuffed our tray (and face FULL of food hehe) But where I am working now, everyone seems to bring & eat healthy stuff. Weekends are a bit tricky. Can't resist the temptations to cook my favourite food and eat a Little bit more than usual but must enjoy life and have a balance right???

I am thinking of doing some DIY strength training at home. But I need to invest on some equipments.I already have an exercise ball somewhere in the garage, need to hunt for it, already have yoga mat & skippping rope, I would need a set of dumbbells + a step, I reckoned this will cost me at least ?? $130, cheaper than a gym membership though, right???

The thing is, can't even get them cheaper on trademe since everyone is still on the new year's resolution mood..hmmmmmmm...I don't even know what 'weight set' do I need, must consult Laura, our monday fitness class instructor

Tata for now, enough ramblings

Lesson number 2

Woohooo this droid blogger thing worked!  ( hahahahaha, poor me, sooo jakuniss)

So let's try lesson #2, uploading piccas

Hmmm, the quality is not so good lahh...bolehh laaa

Sudden urge to blog again

I've left this blog idle for quite sometime,  ?? Reason. Mainly because I've been browsing with iPad a lot lately, brillliant as it is, I simply don't like typing with the 'tot tet' touch keypad, call me old fashion

Then I came accross iBlogger, an apps for iPhone, for blogspot, then it crosses my mind, there must be a Droid version of it, lo and behold, I am updating my blog using a droid version, I love the keypad on my phone, proper QWERTY, LOVE it!

So hopefully there'll be more updates after this..

Let's try this 1st hehehe