Pengorbanan..tapi untuk apa?

Text message from DH this morning:


"Aiman sedih jer hari ni. Dok tepi tingkap lap mata. Wan terpaksa janji macam2"

Really make me super super sad,  sob sob..



Sabaqla Aiman, 6 more weeks till mummy finish my exams and my attachment

I don't know who am I doing this for, myself? them? my parents? terpaksa??

Tutu for Aliya..can't wait

Bought this for Aliya, can't wait for it to arrive. Mula2 nak beli for her birthday, tapi mummy x sabar, I've wanted to buy this ever since I  found out that I was having a girl. Don't know why I waited this long

Tgh cari pearl necklace pulak for her...

4 more weeks..botak la haku...

Botak tapi cung macam Natalie Portman ni x pe la jugak..

I have this habit that I had since uni years..suka cabut rambut time study (to my husband's dismay!!) dia menyampah sebab nanti rambut jatuh merata2, selalu haku kumpul rambut2 tu satu tempat, lepas study, buang

Lagi byk study, lagi byk haku cabut rambut.tangan x bleh dok diam

Time uni dulu, kadang siap pakai tudung time study, sebab takut botak hahhah

Nasib baik lambut jenis lebat

Sudden handbag itch..

I've lasted almost 4 years in NZ with only buying ONE handbag..

Nothing decent to buy here, paling best pun, Oroton je la kot, Aussie brand

Last time beli handbag, on our trip to Sydney more than a year ago, tu pun sebab waktu tu x kerja,on maternity leave,  mampu beli Coach saja, tu pun seksa nak shopping ngan budak2..

ohh how I miss being able to easily window shop and buy handbags in Dublin..

terbayang2 mulberry and YSL yg dulu berkenan kat Brown Thomas tapi tak beli..

Buhsannya..

Here I am, sat at the library trying my very best to digest what am I reading from Orthopaedic Examination Made Easy..Hip and Pelvis chapter precisely

Musculoskeletal is my weak subject..anatomy and understanding of MSS go hand in hand..I am terrible in both..

Here's hoping that PK, my teacher will have some pearl of wisdom for me tomorrow and he won't think I am an idiot..dah la dia ni mmg terer gila MSS, DR for Waikato Rugby lagi..dapat student buta MSS, nasib ler heheh..But for me, Alhamdullilah..last week we went true knee exam, sekejap saja paham after I did it   with
him..That's what the expert are for!

Till then..yawnnnnnnnnnnnnn...........

I am progressing, albeit at a snail space..better than no progress at all right??

Weekend aritu x study sgt sebab dear DH was working

Plan sudah sgt baik....

Patutnya..

Pagi2 pi  hantaq aiman n aliya, then pi library hospital, study + hantar buku due harini, tgh hari pi grand round after lunch, then pi buat pap smear yg sudah 2 bulan overdue, tinggal nak dapat surat ke 3 dari GP aku, lepas tu pi merayap kat kmart + freedom, then ptg pi makan woodfired pizza kat town..sudah lama  x makan

sekali..9.30pi antaq aiman, si jo, cikgu dia kata he shouldn't be there!

gila nak marah aku..mmg aku dah marah pun..mmg agak rude lahaku tad..sila jgn tiru

kisahnya kelmarin, dia muntah 2 x kat sekolah, arnd lunch time,depa quarantine n call kami suh p amek,aku x angkat tepon sebab kuaq lunch terlupa bwk phone,s noorwan yg bwk dia balik umah, depa x kata dia x bleh mai arini

aku kata pasaipa tak bleh mai plak, dia punya vomitting bukan infectious vomiting pun..geram tauu!! dah la balik umah sihat walepat liat saja pun

jo kata ada case satu lagi, so he can only come after 24hrs of last vomit, so aku kata la ridiculous, kalau aku mai hantaq lagi 2 jam, baru boleh

dgn bengangnya aku heret aiman keluaq..dah la waktu tu aiman tgh beriya menangis x mau pi daycare..ni pun satu hal lagi..asyik nak dok umah tgk tv!

aku nak balik umah pun x bolehsebab cleaner ada kat umah 9-11, malas nak balik kacau depa wat keja..so terpaksa la merayap somewhere

so pi la kmart, beli baju kat aliya, balik singgah thai shop beli petai + durian

sgt membuang masa

ni dah dekat pukui 2pm, sepatah perkataan pun x study lagi

dan aiman adalah x dibenarkan tgk tv sama sekali ..aku x mo dia dok igt dok umah dok tv lagi best

problem addicted to tv dia sgt amat chronic..bygkan kalau kami ajak pi playground/going for a walk pun takmau, semata2 nak dok tgk tv!!

So, since aiman boring x tau nak buat apa..asyik dok kacau mummy saja la..

Tadi dia mintakpi daycare,sebab aku kata dia x boleh tgk tv sampai dia balik sekolah esok ptg, tu pun kalau dia x meragam pagi esok time kami nak pi antaq pi daycare..serius rasa macam nak pi hantaq..saja nak bg padan muka so Jo + cikgu2 dia yg lain..tapi aku la plak malas nak buang masa pi hantaq dia..sebab jauh jugak dari umah

Tu belum masuk bab apa nak makan mlm ni lagi..sebab kunun2 nak makan woodfired pizza kannnn.....

Cehh baru berangan nak makan reductil

Time nak masuk bilik tadi nampak surat kat luar pintu bilik

Surat bertarikh 12/10 lagi, yakni, hari ini

Reductil is being ceased from the market daa

Selama ni pun mmg aku jarang2 sekali prescribe because of the side effects

Tapi ni depa nak stop buat ubat tu terus

Sesapa yg dah beli, boleh pi hantaq balik dapat refund

Mulai harini jugak, dah x boleh prescribe reductil

Abih la harapan aku nak kurus

Baru nak convince GP aku MB suh prescribe kat aku walaupun aku tau aku x memenuhi criteria ponnn

Reductil adalah ubat kurus btw..

A moment on the lips..

A lifetime on the hips..

Ni motto adik aku..hasilnya?? before february 2010, berat dia 10kg ringan dari aku, sekarang??? 20 kg lagi ringan dari aku..

Sapa nak tolong kira satt..maksudnya tuan belog punya berat sudah naik 10kg since february..gila ke hapa wehh..

sebab berat naik mencanak2

1) Haku suka makan
2) Stop BF aliya around bulan march - selama ni apa yg aku makan, kalori kuar kot susu
3) Start buat GP, dulu kerja sepital, byk gerak, naik turun tangga etc, sekarang, bukak pintu, patient sudah tunggu depan mata, dah la depa ada coffee machine yg ada hot choc yg sgt sedap lemak berkrim>> pree lak tu!!
4) Konon2 x dak masa nak exercise -yg sebenarnya tu alasan saja -sila jgn tiru wokeh..kalau dr hampa kata kena exercise, hampa sila ikut :)

BMI 24 sudah..upper limit of normal tu!! entah2 dah 25, sudah unhealthy..

Baju byk yg dah ketat, atau masih boleh pakai, tapi sudah nampak enggak molek

Takkan nak beli baju baru kot..

Maybe I should go back and kerja kat ward diabetes Aberdeen Hosp, waktu kerja situ berat turun 15kg, sampai tinggal tulang la pulak heheh

semalam, since desperado, konon nak tiru ada kakak ni makan shake replacement meals, sekali perut haku x tahan la pulak

Gila weh..minum shake tu dalam kul 1230, pukul 2 camtu perut haku memula berangin..dahla waktu tu aku tag along ngan sakkie, tgk skin clinic dia, nak k3ntut ke sendawa pun x boleh..mmg suffer gila la time tu dok bilik dia sampai pukul 4!

Tapi perut haku ni mmg jenis sensitap sikit..pantang silap makan, mmg berangin..

Nampak gaya kena kurus dgn blood, sweat and tears la jugak ni..hahahhah..

Patutla ramai pakat2 mai mintak reductil kat aku..

mana drug company ni..x mo bagi sample reductil ka kat aku??

Empat puluh lapan..

Learnt how to examine a knee the 'exam' way from PK today during our monday lunchbreak today

Revising it at the moment

98 bahagi dua..

Tinggal 49 hari lagi........

Semalam baca stroke prevention, role of antiplatelets vs anticoagulants

What combination to use when etc

Alhamdullilah

Banyakkk sgt benda nak kena cover..

50 days to go..

Until my clinical exam

Clinical 29/11/10 in Wellington
Written 11/12/10 in Hamilton


Ticket dah beli,hotel dah book, I am NZD5,000 poorer


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